FdoxMetal

so its 4am no party rocking, no alcohol and girls… just me and the outside rain. u know those moments when u r alone and bored and have nothing to do and everybody is sleeping are like a nightmare, u know u can’t sleep… u know u can’t go and play your music loud… u just can stay on your bed and think, figure out your life who knows… but thinking is like the best way of getting tired, ur head gets tired so u can eventually sleep well. but what happens when ur heart gets tired? of course u die! :P, but that’s not the question, the thing is that when u had a lot of issues with “love” in your life, the kind u suffer like hell and wanted to die because of it, the kind u gave all u had for someone u loved just to realize that one never loved u… heart gets tired of that, and u learn from that… so now I don’t know what to do, I learn from that and I’m not the kind that falls in love from a day to another… but that might be the problem, I don’t trust my feelings to anybody.. and when I have to it takes me a lot of time. it’s weird, and people might think that I’m shy but I’m not I’m just a human crab hiding his precious heart inside his hard shell. but of course this shell has cracks, and I believe there’s someone entering through them…. just don’t know if I should let her or what.. feel weird I mean writing this is weird!! if I didn’t care I wouldn’t be writing this! so i care! and a lot! but should i??? the one million dollar question. guess I’ll find out the hard way… as I always do… heart gets tired but recovers if your soul is clean, I believe mine is clear so let’s enjoy the moment and suffer later!!! enjoy as long as it lasts… :)! Carpe that fucking DieM